I continue to wonder when and if I’ll ever get this website to the point that I’m satisfied with it. Every time I get revved up and motivated to update the site, life inevitably gets in the way and the task gets moved to the back of the line. Irritating.
Because the 2008-2009 recession (and its 10-year aftermath for some, including me) seriously kicked my butt and took the wind out of my sails, I’ve been trying to catch up to where I was before it hit. A fool’s task and mindset, it appears. I must continue to work a 9 to 5 job because the recession veered me to a different road and my lifelong retirement plans were sidetracked. I have been forced to amend them year after year. The last two law firms I worked for were in serious free fall (a national firm that had to restructure due to a failed merger attempt followed by the major exodus of 30-40 senior partners) and the other trying to deal with serious financial issues. I lost my job at both of them. Made some great life-long friends in the bargain, but the jobs went bye-bye. Popped me into unemployment both times, so there was that.
Sometimes it feels like I’m attempting to climb a gigantic mountain while carrying a backpack filled with heavy rocks to weigh me down and slow my progress. But, like an idiot, I keep getting up every day and climbing that mountain. I guess it’s in my nature not to give up and give in and I’ll keep doing it ’til I can’t do it anymore. I’m hoping to take a serious rest in the future and focus on this website, getting my business up and running (I’ve joined a few writing groups), pitching one of my stage plays, and publishing the novel I’m currently writing. Oh, and looking for a 9 to 5 job is interfering with that progress.
Wish me luck!